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Flightless Birds
02:00
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stuttered screams, broken glass
siren sounds are what will last
no words could take the pain off my chest
blood covered doves are what is left behind
We are trapped inside a heartbeat
and I’m sorry but I need to let you down
this is an anthem for a dying love
we have inner conflicts
but real love is forever
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Sleep
03:04
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after all these sleepless nights
I can still hear your voice
still hear your whispers and the sirens
of broken heartbeats and broken lives
I cannot bear to say goodbye
I fear every step I take
we learned that life’s a one way ticket
which ends in regrets
you were the one who guided me
but I wish that I could see
the place we left we once called home
but I burned it down
we betrayed ourselves with phrases of death
and memories of better days
I’ve counted all tormented weeks
but everything has gone to waste
after all these sleepless nights
I can still hear your voice
still hear your whispers and the sirens
of broken heartbeats and broken lives
I’m trapped in old polaroids
because I’m not able to forget
thinking of you on repeat
is ending in regrets
you were the one who guided me
but I wish that I could see
the place we left we once called home
but I burned it down
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3. |
1997
03:10
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why should I live a life without a cause
why should I even accept living a lie
these thoughts, they never end
I drug this shell over and over again
I hate myself more than you ever could
and I hate myself until my last breath
leaves my lungs
and the world turns cold
an image of you appeared
as I begin to cry
and with my knees on the ground
I’m watching your life passing by
“there is a bluebird
in my heart
who wants to get out
but I’m too tough” - Charles Bukowski
lessons lived & learned
everything is said and done
numb for one last time
calling you my home again
I hate myself more than you ever could
and I hate myself until my last breath
leaves my lungs and the world…
the world turns cold.
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4. |
Monument
04:28
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give me a chance and show me that you’re real
just like the smell of gas on concrete stone
I have learned to leave this place behind
but I can’t believe that you forgot to run away
the bridges we have built will burn
because there’s not much looking forward to
I would walk through fragments for you
and I did as I promised but it won’t bring you back
we run away from the things we’re afraid of
but they’ll haunt us like wolves the moon
I always told you that I’m not afraid of death
but I never told you that death became my closest friend and fear
you are just a ghost, you won’t come back
won’t come back
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5. |
Written Letters
02:57
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with every step that I take
death put another rope on my wrist
come with fire, brighten your path
open your heart or you will walk alone
your silence is the loudest sound
the tragedy is that it ends so soon
in the end I was the one
who brought this darkness over us
I’m not lonely, I’m scared
about what will come and what will go.
so I write down every single burden,
in a diary that I will bury and walk away.
today I confess that I’m tired,
I’m tired of telling myself every day,
that someday everything will change.
the things that kept me alive, were the neon lights
and her smile which shined so bright,
If there is something that I’ve learned from life,
then it's to keep every single moment
that I could have shared with you
my biggest fear was to end up all alone
with somebody that makes you feel all alone
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6. |
Our Bridges Will Burn
03:21
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I’m still scared of what comes after life
I’m trapped in this hell with no escape
I want to cut out my tongue
so I will stop speaking out your fucking name
so I swallow down
another pill and close my eyes
just to see the black emptiness
and feel the cold reality
that you are gone forever
and will never come back
You made me colour-blind
You are inside my head
There’s no happy ending
for the both of us
I lost my way back home
and I will be gone
Alles was ich immer wollte ist nun weit entfernt
Mein Kopf so voll, die Welt so leer
All diese Erinnerungen verbleiben
aber du bist nicht mehr zu sehen
Gefühle, verbrennt mein Herz
es schreit nach Erlösung
Logik, geh deinen Weg
und setz die Segel
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7. |
My Confession
05:29
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the owl leaves the tree, my body’s aching
please let me sleep for 100 days this winter
a storm of tragedies
they pierce through me but they never leave
This is for all these lies and all the broken dreams
I’m not responsible but I took the blame
everything I’ve touched has turn to dust
the serpent's tongue destroyed all of my trust
father, believe me this pain inside my chest is getting heavy
when I lie awake every night alone with a missing piece
that I lost long ago at the search for peace
I’m numbing myself everyday on repeat
cause the coming of age is too much pressure for me
these are the restless times
these are the sleepless nights
I wish that you’d know exactly how this feels for me.
with every broken piece
I am carving your name
into my heart
until we fall apart
demons in, demons out
this is what it’s like to be alone
blessed with red sheets and a knife
there is no love anymore
I want to be a shadow
So I can follow you home
why can’t I just tell you
how this guilt turns me to stone
with every broken piece
I am carving your name
until my heart strikes 12.
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8. |
Blinded By Fireflies
02:17
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I tried to capture all my memories in a polaroid picture
but after a while I recognized that they were all gone
every single one that I knew vanished with every single photograph taken
and I realized that instead of trying to develop my past
I should’ve developed myself
My body is still walking down these streets full of lies
and my eyes are paralyzed by the city lights when the sun sets down
but I feel so connected to them when they guide me back home
This anxiety is following me for days, for weeks and years
and I hope that someday these percocets will vanish along with my fears
I’m turning twentyfour and I forgot when I shed my first tears since you are all gone
but I have to admit that I lost control over all of my burdens
and I hope that you will forgive me
We must learn to live with the mistakes we’ve made
but we will all come to a point where we’re not sure how long that’ll take
“fifteen minutes away, two thousand miles astray
you left me in this ghost town to fall and decay” - the carrier, 2009
I’m used to being let down and I’m used to letting go.
Breathe life into my veins and let me go.
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I can feel this sadness by letting you go
I can feel your disappointment by looking in your eyes
waking up all alone, those three words they are gone
my life is moving through memories and broken lights
stuck with no perspectives I’ll drown happily
at the bottom of the ocean I will wait
for all these burdens that I hate
I’ve given up on everything I used to love
look at me sinking and promise me to keep my heart
I wish that I could fucking say “I used to love my life”
but I burned it down while lighting up a cigarette
Do you remember when we’re young and looked at the stars?
I still look at them and see these constellations
because they help me to forget the sound of your voice
at the bottom of the ocean I will wait for all these burdens that I hate
I say goodbye to broken dreams,
tremendous love and losing streams
I thought so hard that a part of me will change
Farewell, my youth.
Farewell, my love.
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10. |
Coma
03:38
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These familiar frames, meant to hold the pictures of the silhouette that I once called home.
they were gone at the moment when I lost my place.
the one that I built to hide from these memories
I’ve died a million times at night without a chance to say goodbye, just to see the morning sun with you
I silently accept that these shadows will stay with me, because I know you’ll walk this way with me.
Keep me from losing my track
I know that I carry the weight of the world
and the coming of age is too much pressure for me
secrets have pushed you away
If I couldn’t change myself to be the person that you love
this precious life wouldn’t be the same for me
I’ve been burying myself deep inside my head
while faking smiles and losing all my fights
I’ve learned that I don’t live between heaven and hell
‘cause life is choosing what is relevant to me
I see all these endless burdens that I shed
it took so much courage not to drown in my tears
I tried to hide from myself for so many years
but If I could be someone you used to know
It would mean everything to me
Keep me from losing my track
I know that I carry the weight of the world
and the coming of age is too much pressure for me
secrets have pushed you away
If I couldn’t change myself to be the person that you love
this precious life wouldn’t be the same for me
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autumn kids. Germany
Wistfulness, despair, rage.
Friends who make music together.
Always Antifascist.
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