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Winter (I'm Leaving)
01:45
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i didn’t see these demons ripping out my happiness
sometimes i’m still blindfolded and i still let them use me
one day i will die and my soul will fade
but until then i'll love what's close to home
i say goodbye to this wreckage
i say goodbye to myself
breathe in // breathe out // repeat
i wish you’d say goodbye
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Uncertainty
03:21
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i can't find the strength to say “everything will be ok”
because I cannot lie that way
let me fall to the ground that shows my past
and let me lie there drenched by the rain
which tastes like blood to me
there's a knife inside my back
and my life is twitching it slowly
i can’t find the strength to say that “everything will be ok”
minutes become hours, hours become days
and i've never felt more alone
I've buried my head waiting for the day
but there's no happy end
happy end
i need to find a mirror just to see the cracks of what I am
or what i could have been
with every breath I take i'm getting weaker
and my lungs fill with water
and i try every second not to drown
but sometimes i'm losing my grip and i'm afraid you'll do the same
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as we were growing up we both learned
that life will take us where we want to go
but i don’t know if i'll make it without you
sometimes I’m asking myself if it was right to run away
but a part of me feels confident
i’m afraid that the distance will tear us apart
but some things will never change
every night i’m trying to forget these memories
and i’m trying to focus on the good things you did to me
i’m so far from home and i’m counting down these days
i hope you’ll be waiting
waiting
i’m sick and tired
of fighting against myself
i’m telling myself “i need some time alone”
just for a while
just for a life
for so long I listened to these have heart songs
waiting for the day
to stand up and scream at the sun
i’m not ready for this life to end
i keep fighting for my friends
for my friends.
every night I’m trying to forget these memories
and I’m trying to focus on the good things you did to me
i’m so far from home and i’m counting down these days
i hope you’ll be waiting
waiting
thank you
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this house had so many rooms
i tried to find a way outside
you always complained about the cigarettes
they were the only thing that burned my demons inside
tell me about my mistakes I’m listening
i’ll be fine
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do you still see light in this empty room?
is it easy to say life goes on?
recurring dreams, i want to see what they mean
i hope they'll mean something before we leave
i cannot bear it anymore to see myself in the mirror
i'm lost in memories and i know that they'll never come back
do they even have a value for you? when everything is meaningless?
if I could catch the stars, i'd let the deepest black disappear
"why do you think about a life when you can't see clear?" you said
because even when i'm broken i'm longing for rest
i lie awake every morning but the ghost of this room, he knows my fate
do you still see light in this empty room?
i take a walk through the forest of youth
but i see the shots of light when I hear your voice
i learned to say that I'm fine but that is my biggest lie
i walk through the deep black sea
just let me sink, let me sink.
if life's a journey, i'm not ready for it
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Drowning
04:37
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i fear not the dark but the outside
feel free from my life at night
i leave for places I could never reach
i hope we'll meet again when I close my eyes
and we're getting closer just for a few seconds
before I barely ask you for your name
i try to sleep because i've lived here for so long
and i try to hold on
in my dreams, the only place i feel i belong
i am locked in my apartment
i am free from this birdcage of mine
you dig a grave for me called hell
the only way out is when i close my eyes
you can see me drowning in the rivers of misery
i'm sinking and sinking and sinking
i search for you through the deep black sea
in hope that it will bring you back to me
i try to sleep because I've lived here for so long
and i try to hold on
in my dreams, the only place i feel i belong
the dreams i belong
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autumn kids. Germany
Wistfulness, despair, rage.
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